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| an excerpt from "A concise chinese-english dictionary for lovers" by xiaolu guo:
You feel happy again, your mood is like English weather.
You are in pieace, like the fruit tree without flowers in the garden. YOur happiness is from your own world, ...your happiness is from your masculine world, and in that world you feel everything is under control.
Your sadness actually has nothing to do with me. Your stress is not really from me. It is from your masculine world, because you dont feel satisfied with your life as a man. And you might think i am an obstacle in your life. You think your sadness caused by our relationship, by love prison.It is not true. Your happiness and your sadness is from the world that you fight with yourself.
My love to your is like a lighthouse, always searching for something special about you. And you are special. But i dont know if you think of me in the same way. You always say things like these to me:
" How did you burn the rice again? A chinese woman shouldn't burn rice,
you eat it everyday."
" I spend more time with you than with my friends. Why do you still complain?
What else do you want?"...
It seems you dont treat me as a special person in your life. You treat me as one of your friends. And there is a line you draw between you and me. There is a limit, from your heart, from your lifestyle, which makes love feels like a friendship. You live inside of me, but I dont live inside of you.
You say Frida Kahlo is one of your heroes. OF course i knew that. I knew that from your book shelf. I knew that bexause i knew your heroes are always in pain, and died young.
In nobody's London Fields, i sit on a chair, and read about Frida Kahlo again. I want to understand you, and i want understand your twisted statue lying on the ground of your garden. Frida, her body falling apart when she was alive. Her bones were smashed by the bus accident. Death has been eating her everyday until one day nothing is fresh left. Again I see your naked man lying down on the ground. Your twisted statue, how similar to Frida's body in her painting.
In your world, i am losing my world. In your pain, I am losing myself. Everything makes me think about you, only about you and your world. I am like a wallpaper stuck on the wall of your house, looking at you and decorating your life. " Dont bury me, burn me. I dont want to lie down anymore," Friday lay on the bed and said to her husband. She could not move one inch. A negotiation between her and the devil. My life compared to hers, is nothing.
Think about it.
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| after countless dreadful days
countless sleepless nights,
i'll give you another shot at this.
so far it's been alright, seems like you really learned your lesson this time.
but i dont know how long this will last, like all the other times.
one thing i know for sure, it wont be permanent. Because i know you.
till that day comes i've made up my mind to put my heart into your hands,
but this time, leaving my emotions to myself, save myself some dignity.
Who told me to be so trusting, so forgiving?
It's my own fault that i trust people i love, and my own fault for hurting myself.
I hope this time, that i can trust you.
Now it's the final act, Act V, scene i.
lets see whether it was intended to be.
came to truly realize that only God is the one that i can trust,
the only one that will never take my heart and break it.
He is the only one that welcomes me with open arms every.single.time. i turn away.
What i suffer isn't even significant when i think about what he has to go through with me everyday.
how does he do it, and how come i can't be more like him?
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| you're the biggest jerk i've ever met in my life and yet i still give you chances to become something better. i know it never works, and all the chances that i give are useless yet i still believe that something good will come out of all of this crap. haha. i know you too well to know that your selfish ways will never change, and most likely, i wont be able to put up with all your crap that i'll walk out. | | |
| finally watched the twilight movie, first time watching a movie with the kids i tutor, very different experience! as for the twilight movie, i was DETERMINED to watch it on opening day (today) therefore i decided to watch it in maple ridge / pitt meadows after i finished tutoring. The movie, i would say was overall following the book. Edward did a good job fleshing out the character, but bella,..hmmm I would have to say otherwise. There was some pretty funny spots, like when they introduce Jasper, it was so unexpected that it was funny. I'm sure the audience would agree with me on this one. Anyways, the movie was good, cut out alot of stuff from the book ( like all adaptations do) and made do with alot of makeshits, combining pages and pages together into something totally new and different. Fight scene would always be the climax, making the audience gasp and sit on the very edge of their chairs. Well done fight scene! Excellent casting for Alice and Emmett, those two totally fit my expectations of them :) i wouldnt say that it was the best movie i ever saw, but it was enough to satisfy my thirst for mort twilight related stories for now. (thank you) but i would overall say that it was a good movie!! \ YAY TWILIGHTTTTTTTTTTT <3 | | |
| Cry- Rihanna
決定不要在乎了,關心的話只有我在痛,太可笑了巴.
只有我ㅡ個像笨蛋ㅡ樣的想念, 擔心, 白痴的跟隨你...
以爲給了你ㅡ次又ㅡ次的機會之後
你至少學會怎樣才避免ㅡ次兩次的傷透我,
結果, 不但左耳入右耳出, 還以爲每ㅡ次的機會是理所當然,是應得的
到底是誰把你變成ㅡ個沒心沒肺的人,
可以把ㅡ個人傷得遍體鱗傷,戲弄到如此不堪的地步?
所以說靚仔無本心簡直是金句,
就算不是專不專ㅡ的問題,心根本就沒在這,跟有另ㅡ個有何分別!
但我這樣無限次原諒, 也是我犯賤,
也許是自作孽, 不可活巴... 미워지만, 사랑해. sigh*
still dont stop me-Jessia Simpson. | | |
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